I didn't want to do this.

I. LOOK. RETARDED.
(DJ SiSeN, Myself, Gothique Prince Ken, fu~ki, Kiwamu, Rui)
 

But it's cool because I'm with four men I adore very much, and my best friend. Poor fu~ki was sick! GPK, too. x_x;

Anyways, let me just say that LA FIN DE LA JOURNEE was...amazing. And depressing. 

 

Today I was like "Did you see my new pictures on MySpace? 8D" He said so, so I explained that I did Ruki make-up in them. And I told him I was really proud this time because I looked the most like Ruki than I ever have before.
 

-SHAMELESS FACE WHORING.-

And all that cockbag said was "The whole 'Jrock' look is getting kind of old to me." For one. Ryan isn't a fan of Jrock. His feelings on their "FASHION" are void. I just get so pissed that he TRIES to say things that he knows will piss me off. ><; Ryan. For you information, I'm pretty sure that ALL Jrock fashion is FAR more unique than any of the shitty bands you listen to. "OMG! JACK WHITE HAS PANTS THAT ARE TWO COLORS! OMG!" Have you ever seen some Jrock outfits? Not to mention, Japan is basically the fashion capital on that side of the fucking planet, so your opinion can suck it. Especially since I didn't go "My new pictures are awesome and Jack White is a greasy hobo."

It was even worse the other day when I showed him my drawing of Mao from Sadie. I was REALLY REALLY REALLY proud of this drawing. Especially after getting fucked in the ass from that art contest at AAA. It was probably one of the best drawings I've ever done when it came to looking at a picture. And all he could talk about was how disgusting Mao's neck piercing was and how it made him want to throw up. And he didn't even compliment it until I was like "Well, I showed it to you so you could critique my artistic ability, not rant about your disgust for a piercing like a pussy little girl." It would have been a little more understandable if Ryan wasn't an artist himself. The only reason I show him anything is because I think he's going to give me tips, but NO. He just has to once again talk down about how MY BANDS -LOOK-. Not sound! LOOK. What a wank. Fuck him.

In good news:

-Dropped Chem! No more depression from doing so awful!
-Becky called back and got Samm and I hair appointments for next week!
-LA FIN DE LA JOURNEE is in two weeks! v_____v; <3
 

Ugh. I'm so aggrivated. Part of me just wants to stop talking to you altogether. But for the sake of school not being awkward my last semester, I won't do that.

Let me just say this:

After this school year is over, I'm so fucking done with you.




I'm gonna watch Aki play darts again.

Ignore the Subject. I've told you before I'm no good at making them up.

So, recently I heard something that one of my supposed "friends" said about me. It's something along the lines of "Things aren't the same as they used to be between us, but I really don't care."

For one, Ouch. Like I really need a friend to be like "Yeah, you're cool but I can find better." And it hurts even more to think back to all the past "Best Friendships" that I've had that fell through and how if I had the chance to have them back like I used to I'd totally take it. I miss Ashley, and I THOUGHT I missed her...

But right now I finally have a best friend who isn't going to leave me. And I'm not going to leave her either.

In other words, I watched a short video from Dir en grey's Chicago show and the person recording thought that Kyo said "SHUT UP!" when he actually says "CHICAGO!" XD

I'm so in love with my Byou icon. <3

I'm so in love with my Byou. <3